#i did super heavily lean on the original but i just wanted to do this as a writing ex and to get into character :)

[dommnics]

Tell me, please, how did you find your style in drawing characters?

Hi!

I really don't have an original answer haha! For me, what seemed to develop it was just being interested in different kinds of artists and art styles, adopting elements from them and playing with them in a way that I personally liked, and that just eventually became my style

Back when I thought I wanted to head into animation, I was adamant with myself on trying to replicate a mix of the conventional Disney look + Don Bluth's art style. This was 2012 for me where I only drew in that style:

And then I gradually transitioned into what I call my thin lips, thin noses, big ears era lol. It wasn't super conscious, but that's what I just thought looked nice and felt natural to draw at the time. At this point, I discovered the artist Phobs and their style really inspired and influenced a lot of how I drew features during that time. There's some Minkyu Lee influence in there, a bit of Ghibli, and mainly still influenced by animation.

I started getting more into video games later on in high school, and I feel like that started to bleed into my art style somehow.

When I got to university, I had really fallen into a rabbit hole of the world of graphic novels and comics which definitely influenced my style. I was (and still am) really inspired by artists like Babs Tarr, Jorge Jimenez, Jake Wyatt, Jen Wang, Dan Mora, Jeff Smith, Emily Carroll, Faith Erin Hicks, Jamie Hewlett, to name some. There's of course so much more, but I'm just recalling and working off the top of my head!

There was a point where I started drawing more fanart for live action properties (especially for the DC movies) and that also started to influence my style, because I remember I was more interested in leaning away from a heavily cartoony style and trying to give characters slightly more realistic sized features and proportions (but of course, still very stylized.)

But eventually I fell back into a heavier cartoony and stylized look for how I drew characters which is where I'm at these days, and I really attribute this to doing comic work. I worked on my first graphic novel (it's not out yet!) and I can literally see how it changed my style when I look at the first couple of pages vs how I was drawing by the end of the book. It really loosened me up in how I draw now because of how many pages I had to whip up in a month.

For example, this is how I was drawing one of the main characters when I initially pitched the graphic novel in 2020.

and now, he looks like this. Haha!

And ultimately, after looking through old art to find some examples for this, I love that I can still see every single influence and inspiration in how I draw today. I took some different turns along the years (I honestly had so many art style shifts on the way that I didn't even detail here because this thread would be gigantic), but I can see how everything led me to the style that I feel comfortable am happy drawing in today. And I'm sure it's going to continue to look different in two years time even.

[mikalara-dracula]

Nicknames that the boys (s+m+t+kino) would give their s/o

Nicknames the Diaboys would give their s/o—

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Shu:

Shu’s not super into nicknames, so he sticks to using his lover’s real name.

But every so often (depending on the situation), he’ll call his girl by a nickname.

Sappy girl/firecracker—He usually calls his lover this if they scold him for something or if they have a sharp tongue, to which he finds amusing.

Dirty girl—I mean, what girl does he not address as lewd? So, you can best bet he’s going to do the same with you.

Body pillow/my pillow—It’s just cuz he’s an ass and likes to use you as a body pillow in general.

Reiji:

Reiji doesn’t really give his lover nicknames, so he usually falls back on calling his s/o by their name or using more formal and elegant terms.

Dear/dearest/my dear—He’ll address you by any of these three when the moment is sweet, or he’s trying to get your attention in a sensible way.

Honey—He calls you this on rare occasions, or when he’s up for one of his famous “special” nights.

I can’t-

Laito:

Ohh, Laito’s all about nicknames and prefers to call his lover by those names rather than their real name since he’s quite playful. 

Baby—I mean, we’ve all heard him call Yui this, so you can best bet he’ll call his s/o this, especially when he wants to make things frisky.

Darling—He’ll call you this if he’s feeling romantic and pretty playful.

Naughty—I think this is pretty self-explanatory lmao. Usually calls you this if he thinks you’re provoking him, or if you in fact are.

Baby girl—He uses this either casually or sexually, such as in the bedroom or when you two are getting intimate elsewhere. It could honestly be anywhere with Laito xDD.

Ma Cherie—In bed, during aftercare.

Kanato:

In a relationship with Kanato, there’s a mix of nickname and real name usage.

He mostly leans towards using nicknames he’s made for his lover because he finds them significant to their character and his relationship with them.

Princess—If there’s one thing about Kanato, it’s that he likes to make his lover feel special, and because he’s not the type to date just anyone, *cough* Laito *cough* he believes his lover is more than worthy to be called this.

Doll—It’s because you resemble one in his eyes, beautiful and flawless. He’ll usually address you with this title when he’s trying to get your attention, or if he’s flattering you for something you did for him.

Gorgeous—Need I say much here? He calls you this because you are, it’s as simple as that.

Precious—Anyone who is Kanato’s lover is beyond precious in his eyes, so it’s only natural that he addresses his girl in this way since she’s his one and only.

Lover—Oooh, this one’s heavily romantic, and this is where he stands out the most from his brothers because he’s so original when it comes to flattery. He always knows exactly what to say to make anyone swoon. ME! Fuck!

Ayato:

Because Ayato’s not super formal, sweet nicknames are just not it for him. They typically range between teasing to minorly suggestive.

Pancake—He’ll call you this whether you’re flat or not. It’s just to annoy you because he sucks like that.

Babe—He’s a jock, so he’ll definitely revert to addressing his girl in this way rather often.

Bruh/Bro—He addresses his girl this way pretty casually since it’s part of his lingo. And on some days he calls her “brah” to change things up. xDD He’ll even go to using “dude” lmao. xDD

Captain—He usually calls you this when you’re asking him to do something or to help you out and he’s reluctant to do so. So, because he feels that you’re bossing him around, he’ll call you this to tick you off. Or, if he really wants to push things, he’ll call you “Reiji.” xDD

Subaru:

Dollface—He’s definitely going to call you this because you’re pretty. Like, no questions asked.

Babe—He prefers it over “baby,” and is pretty casual about using it towards you.

Shortie—He’ll call you this only if you’re shorter than him. Guess I’m in that club lmao. It’s just to annoy you since he sucks like that.

Pipsqueak—He finds this one really amusing to use, especially if you walk away from him during an argument. So, he’ll call you this to get your attention again even though you’re beyond pissed at him. Check out @liannelara-dracula’s post about this here.

Ruki:

Ruki usually refers to his s/o by their name, and just prefers it that way.

But if their name is really long, he’ll shorten it but add an interesting twist to it.

It’s so rare if he calls his girl by a nickname, it’s usually when he’s being a teasing fuck.

Angel/Angel face—This may sound sweet and all, but he’ll call his lover this in a more teasing than sensible way. It’s just cuz he’s an ass and we all know it.

Kou:

Kou is literally the king of nicknames. So he’s got all sorts for his lucky girl.

Kitten/Kitty—Calls you this when greeting or saying goodbye to you, following up with a kiss since he’s sweet like that.

Sugar/buttercup/cutie/cutie pie—Because Kou finds you adorable, he loves addressing you with these terms.

My love bug—He usually calls you this when you’re snuggled up next to him because he’s sentimental like that. Aww :’)).

Yuma:

Because of his teasing nature, Yuma has all sorts of nicknames for his lover.

Little pig/piglet—I mean, we see him call Yui and pretty much any other girl this, so it isn’t going to leave since he finds it amusing.

Toots—This is mostly just to annoy you since you roll your eyes at him every time he calls you this, to which it only fuels him to tease you more.

Babe—He uses this pretty casually with you. It’s become second nature in all honesty. Not that that’s a bad thing tho xDD.

My girl—He definitely prefers to call you this instead of addressing you as his girlfriend. He finds it hot.

Munchkin—If you’re shorter than him, you’re not escaping this nickname. For example, he’ll call you this if you’re helping him out in the garden, such as when he asks you to grab a tool for him.

Pumpkin—He harvests them, so of course he has to apply it to his relationship with you. He calls you this mostly because he finds it cute.

Azusa:

Eve—He calls Yui this all the time, so you can imagine he’s going to do the same with his lover. I seriously swear this guy has an Edennic kink of some sort.

Sweetie—He likes to call you this just to get your attention, it’s mostly cuz he’s genuinely sweet in nature.

My flower—This is honestly so cute. He usually calls you this whenever you two share a super soft moment. :))

Oh, my heart-

Carla:

Carla’s not one to really use nicknames since he’s ancient, so he usually calls you by your name.

But every once in a while, he does decide to address you differently, and because he likes to catch you off guard.

Sweetheart—OMG! He’ll call you this when you least expect it and it’s a surprise every time. It literally makes anyone’s heart skip a beat.

Future queen/my queen—This just depends on your relationship status with him, but make no mistake that he’s set on the idea of making you his queen even if you two haven’t gotten that far in your relationship yet.

Shin:

Like Carla, he isn’t too big on nicknames, but he’ll slip them in whenever he deems it necessary.

Love—It’s mostly because he spent too much time in Britain lol. But I can’t lie and say it doesn’t suit him.

Sweetheart—It’s not very often, but it’s usually when you two are sharing a soft moment of some sort, that is, when he isn’t being a teasing mf. But then again, when is he not acting like that? Lol.

Foxy—You hate it and it’s meant to annoy/embarrass you.

Kino:

Oh my god, he has so many for his s/o, it’s ridiculous.

And each one he uses depends on his mood.

Babe—Like Ayato, Subaru, and Yuma, he’ll call you this pretty often. He prefers it over “baby.”

Toots—He finds you hot, and he’s definitely going to call you this whenever you two engage in a snarky argument. It’s mostly because he likes throwing you off and getting you to blush at his reference to you.

Hot stuff—This nickname literally annoys the shit out of you and he’s always like ‘what? I gotta say it.’

Boss/Sir—Sometimes if you tell him to do something or help you, like Ayato, he’ll call you this cuz he thinks you’re being bossy. To which you just end up calling him “ma’am” as a retort lmao. xDD

My girl—This is a big one for him. Like, he doesn’t call you his girlfriend, he calls you “his girl” because he wants everyone to know how serious you two are.

[purgemarchlockdown]

Mikoto being so heavily associated with the female characters while Kotoko isn't is really intriguing with how he's so heavily sexualized in MeMe and plays into a lot of horror tropes.

The bathtub and the shower scene are common locations in horror, especially for Women. With one of the most iconic horror scenes Ever being the shower scene from Psycho, in which a woman is murdered in the shower.

Not to mention the lyrical pattern of calling back the title of the first MV that all the girls, except for Kotoko, follow. With Mikoto actually calling back to the title of his T1 MV in Double and having it be such an important part of it that they call back to it in the Trial 2 Album. Something originally pointed out by oboetmasuka here and candckirby who also mentions Mikoto's role as the "Final girl" and his consistent pregnancy metaphor with how John is called a newborn.

I think the way Kotoko connects to Masculinity is subtler but just as important, her interrogation question shows she's not attached to it, but she doesn't seem against it or anything.

(Kotoko Interrogations)

T1Q10: What do you think about the word 'feminimity'? A: It's one of the means you can take. It's something you can freely choose depending on the scene, so it's not something to cling onto.

Kotoko doesn't wear anything traditionally feminine but she doesn't lean super masculine either...except.

Okay so, 1moremilgram-enjoyer made this really interesting post about Kotoko's cap you can read here. Basically her cap has the name Jacques Roulet on it's front. Jacques Roulet is the name of a Male Serial Killer who killed two children and claimed to be a werewolf.

This cap appears in her outfit in Harrow:

But also appears in her T2 Design:

Establishing some sort of connection between him and Kotoko.

If we're reading into this Further. John and Kotoko are actually very similar in their want to become someone's "savior" as that's what gives them a sense of purpose.

John's an interesting character in this dynamic. Because if Mikoto is the helpless princess, John is the faithful prince. Coming to save his pitiful damsel whose too weak to protect himself.

(Mikoto T2 VD)

John: It’s true that I was the one who wanted to destroy everything… and the weakness of Boku, who couldn’t stand up for himself all alone, might have been the origin of that. But… that’s all there is to it. Is that a sin?

Mikoto has little to no agency and he Knows This. He doesn't know what's happening, is confused and terrified all the time, and feels like he's on a train with an unknown destination. He feels powerless and like he has no control. While John tries his best to help him, but ultimately harms him, cause John will do what He thinks Mikoto needs without knowing what Mikoto wants. Something he seems regretful for.

Hey, I just wanted to save you So why did it come to this?

However, Kotoko does have some sense of Power and Agency and actively Holds this over others.

From the begin I've never asked for your understanding! My actions, one by one, are bringing earth closer to peace. Useless Weaklings should just shut up and let me protect them!

There's nothing inherently wrong with wanting to present more masculine or feminine. However, there is a problem with enforcing strict and rigid roles onto people, especially if those roles enforce systems of power that allow for the exploitation of groups of people by elevating one group and putting down the other.

Even if the gender roles the two fit in are flipped, it is still playing into unhealthy ideals of gender and society that perpetuate abusive systems of power.

(Utena Scripts)

Voice:  Was the ring from the prince meant as an engagement ring? Voice:  That part was good, Voice:  but because of the strength of her admiration for the prince, Voice:  the princess made up her mind to become a prince herself! Voice:  But is that really good for her?

(I got it in!)

I think I might have to wait for Deep Cover's MV to release to fully discuss this, but this is really curious to me.

[the-gay-disney-games]

Round 1B: The Lion King 1 1/2 (2004) vs. Mulan (1998)

Propaganda:

The Lion King 1 1/2:

“This movie is about Timon and Pumbaa raising a child together”

“Just 2 dudes raising their son and dealing with commitment issues. The movie heavily leans into the bit that Timon and Pumba are like a couple. Timon is voiced by gay icon Nathan Lane. This movie was my childhood.”

Other propaganda for the original movie with the same idea:

“Simba was literally raised by a gay couple (Timon and Pumba…Timon even literally wears drag in the movie)”

“Timon and Puumba are a queer couple that raised simba into adulthood. Scar is a mean gay. Nuff said”

“Timone and Pumbaa are Simba's gay adoptive dads.”

Mulan:

“Trans awakening for so many of us”

“Well Mulan gives off very non-binary vibes”

“Literally listen to the music also Li Shang”

“just what your intro post said - Milan being trans (or gnc) coded and Li Shang being bi coded. like come on do i even need to explain? I’ll just add that I was listening to “Reflection” on repeat cuz the lines “Who is that girl I see staring straight back at me?…When will my reflection show who I am inside?” we’re stuck in my head. So with that song on loop I decided to finally chop my hair short in true Milan fashion (ok that’s a lie, I didn’t do it myself, but the PRINCIPLE) so not only is Milan trans/gnc coded but I can’t be the only one the movie inspired to finally go for The Haircut or something else related. sry that’s very rambly”

“gnc. bisexual. what more could u want.”

“Both trans and gay coded. Shang was so into Ping that he couldn’t stand to execute him for his “crime”. Also includes drag saving the day!”

“This is less a competition for the queerest movie and more a competition for the second queerest movie. Just *look* at every aspect of Mulan and tell me it’s even a contest.”

“Not only is mulan super trans coded but Shang is definitly bi”

“I know it's the obvious pick, but Mulan is so gender and Shang is so bi. 💯💯💯”

“Mulan is very trans coded. Li Shang is totally bi. Dude absolutely had a thing for “Ping” before learning he was actually a woman (Mulan). Also watching that movie as a young egg made me feel less alone about the fact that I didn’t fit into the “girl” role everyone around me pushed me into. Mulan was kind of my hero and sometimes listening to Reflection makes me tear up a little bit because it’s such a mood but also such a TRANS mood. It’s probably my favorite Disney movie song. “Why is my reflection someone I don’t know” made me THINK as a kid. Disney may be evil but they did the world a great service with Mulan.”

“It is obvious why”

“If movies could turn you trans this one did it to me”

“I mean I assume this one is going to be there, but what if we all think “oh everyone is going to put mulan so I won’t” and then nobody does?”

“it’s mulan”

“Gender”

“Mulan is so trans, however you want to read her (as a trans man, genderqueer, genderfluid, etc.) and Shang is hella bi. Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk”

“This movie is SOOOOO trans coded. Captain Li is a bisexual icon. As an Asian queer person I have sat and cried to Reflection by Lea Salonga while staring in a mirror too many times to count. Can I be my authentic self without making my parents who I love hate me? It's too good.”

“My little asian tboy awakening”

“Can be read as transmasc- he finds his true purpose/calling in life by presenting as male- or as transfem- she goes against everyone’s expectations for her by revealing her true self as a woman. A very trans movie. Also just a very good movie in general.”

[pettypuppy-jonghyun]

Kiss Me | Han

Summary: you saw the TikTok couple recreate Wattpad men poses, so you made Han do it with you

Warnings: cheesy

@alyszaen he would so do this for you

You beckoned your boyfriend to your side with a plan in mind. He came shuffling across the living room floor to where you stood, phone in hand and a devious smile upon your lips. Despite this, he hadn't seemed to notice anything off about you yet. He wore this most innocent gaze as he came to stand before you.

"We are going to recreate booktok men."

Jisung's eyebrows furrowed as he shoved his hands in his hoodie pocket. "Booktok men?"

You nod fervently, placing your phone down on the back of the couch to get yourself into position. "Yes. I'm going to make you do things bookworms think is super hot and you are going to fulfill all my fantasies."

Jisung's frown turned into a grin almost instantly at the mention of making you happy. He waited for you to figure a couple of things out before following closely behind as you guided him to a wall.

"Now, what I need you to do is press me against this wall." You point to the one behind you. "As you do that, you need to take your left arm and raise it above my head, leaning in."

You mimic the actions like he you had seen originally on TikTok. You take your right knee, lifting it up slightly to signify where Jisung needed to put it. After explaining it thoroughly, you clapped your hands together in confidence.

Jisung hesitantly moves, attempting to be gentle with you as he pushes you back by the top of your chest. You smile brightly, noticing how he reacted the same as the video you had seen. Still, you kept silent as he pressed you firmly against the wall, doing exactly as you instructed and leaning in.

However, to make it more comfortable for him, Jisung's right hand slid up your neck, resting softly at the base of your throat as he lent it. He smirked upon noticing your eyes fluttering up at him, feeling confident in the actions he was performing because of your request.

"Like that?" He whispers, face just mere centimeters from yours. Jisung was not the type to initiate such moves on his own without being somewhat tempted. He's flirted numerous times with you before, almost like a daily habit of his, but booktok actions were a whole other genre for him. Despite this, he wanted to please you in any way possible and did exactly whatever you asked for.

The smirk never left his lips as he breathed heavily on you. The sweet scent of him was too tempting, so you pushed yourself off the wall to meet him halfway. Unfortunately, you are dating a tease, and he backed away instantly. You tried not to pout at the loss of his body against your own.

"What's next?" He asks, laughing to himself when he notices your expression.

You rolled your eyes, moving to glance at your phone again. The couple in the videos had a few different positions they reenacted, so you chose a couple of your favorites to save. The next one was a little less intimate, but still extremely attractive.

"So I'm going to place my arm on your left shoulder, I dunno why but I am, and I need you to wrap your hand around my wrist."

You instructed him where he needed to stand for this one, grabbing his left hand to cross over and grip your wrists lightly. He watched carefully as you pretended to yank him forward, informing him every movement. When he finally got it down, you tried again.

"Ready?" You ask, unable to stop the smile forming.

Jisung waits for you to place your arm on his shoulder before enacting his next part, reaching to grab your arm. However, when he did so, he yanked a little too soon and threw you off balance. Immediately you were pulled into his chest, pushing him back against the wall again.

He starts laughing as he pushes you back, grabbing you by the chin and turning your face side to side to check if you were alright. "I'm sorry, babe." He giggles to himself for a moment as attempts to silence the laughter by biting his bottom lip.

You rolled your eyes at him. "Yank my arm off why don't cha," you grumble. You couldn't help but laugh slightly too, the image of his surprised expression etched into your mind.

You both try again, resuming the previous positions with your hand on his shoulder. This time, Han successfully grasps your wrist in his hold and pulls on it, bringing you right up to his face. Your connected hands raise high into the air to give him more room to close in on. You could tell that now you wore the surprised expression.

"Gotcha," he teases, quickly pecking your lips before releasing you and attempting to walk away.

You grabbed his hood for his sweatshirt, forcing him to stop in place. "Not so fast," you warn him, peeking your head over his shoulder. He tried to looks down at you but found it difficult while still facing forward.

"What? You got more?"

It was your turn to smirk. "No, but you owe me so many kisses now."

[brightlight-dazzlingeyes]

CELEBRITY | chapter 6

rúben dias x original female character [+18]

SYNOPSIS: The protagonist has tried everything: acting, modeling, singing. But what got her a front page cover was being seen with a Premier League player. Unfortunately, that’s currently the least of her worries. WARNINGS: mention of kevin de bruyne x oc; slightly possessive ruben; some kisses; social media post; minors dni.

sidenote: (there’s a lot of exposition in this chapter cause i haven’t thought about this story for a while, but i ended up loving how it turned out!)

|[previous chapter]| — |[masterlist]|

CHAPTER VI — THE HARSH REALITY

The protagonist's footsteps echo in the dimly lit hallway as she makes her way to her agent's office. She pushes open the door to find a middle-aged woman with a perpetual frown, staring at her computer screen with disinterest.

"Hey, what the fuck is going on with your life?" Her agent's voice is sharp, cutting through the silence. She doesn’t bother looking in the protagonist’s direction.

The agent's office is too small, tucked away in a nondescript building. The walls are lined with shelves filled with dusty awards and memorabilia from past successes. The room is cramped, filled with stacks of papers and the faint scent of stale coffee. 

A large desk dominates the room, a computer screen casting a soft glow. The agent herself sits behind the desk, a woman with short, dyed brown hair that hints at strands of gray. She wears her usual light pink button-up shirt, a touch of personal style in an otherwise professional setting.

The protagonist sits opposite her, on a chair that seems almost too small for the weight of their conversation. She fidgets nervously, her fingers tracing patterns on the armrests, trying to find the right words to explain the mess her life has become.

"I know, I know." She says, trying to calm her agent. "But things have been complicated lately. There's this person, they're threatening to release this video of me fighting with Kevin..."

"Kevin?" Her agent's eyebrows jump up in surprise. "De Bruyne? The same Kevin who recorded you without your consent? Why didn't you tell me about this before?"

As they talk, the agent's expression shifts from curiosity to concern. She leans forward, resting her elbows on the desk, her gaze locked on the protagonist. 

The protagonist nods, feeling a lump form in her throat. "Yes, that Kevin. I didn't tell you because... I don't know. I guess I thought I could handle it on my own."

Her agent leans back in her chair, sighing heavily. "Look, I get that you're in a tough spot, but you need to start thinking about your career.” She takes her glasses off and rubs her eyes before putting them back on. “And now you’re being spotted with his teammate? What the actual fuck? What am I even doing here?”

Her agent takes a deep breath before shoving the knife in, as she says: "We tried everything. You told me your dreams were to be famous, remember? So we tried out acting but you're mediocre at best at that. We tried modeling but you’re too short, don’t have the profile. Then… You claimed you were a singer at heart and you know what? I could see that becoming something real, something solid.” Another deep breath. “But a Wag? Baby, that’s way out of my specialty."

The protagonist knew her agent was right, but hearing it out loud stung nonetheless.

"I know, I know." She sighs, pulling out her phone. "I just... I don't know what to do anymore."

She opens her messages with Kevin, her fingers trembling slightly as she scrolls through their recent exchanges.

Kevin: Wtf That's so creepy Someone was recording us fighting 🫥 I will find out who was it Don't worry

Protagonist: Yeah is super creepy when somebody records you without your consent right????

Kevin: 🫣 At least you're wearing clothes on this one 🤭 You should have told me about this before This involves me too

Protagonist: You're such an asshole. After what you did to me, I don't owe you shit.

Kevin: Hey 👀 Do you want to come over??

Protagonist: Ewww, no. Fuck you.

Kevin: Whatever Bitch

Her agent reads the messages, her expression turning thoughtful. "Okay, we need to be proactive about this. We need to find out who this anonymous person is and stop them before they can do any more damage."

The protagonist nods, feeling a glimmer of hope. Maybe, just maybe, she can turn this around and finally achieve the fame she's always dreamed of.

“Anything else?” The agent asks.

“Nothing I can’t handle.” The protagonist speaks softly, thinking about Lily.

“For fucks sake, just tell me!” There's a sense of urgency in her voice.

"A former friend is now my roommate, but I’ll handle this one, I’m serious." Her voice is tinged with a hint of defiance, a determination to assert control over her tumultuous life.

The mention of Lily, the new roommate, brings a moment of tension to the room. The protagonist's hesitation is palpable, a mix of fear and determination. She knows that having Lily around will only complicate things further, but she's resolved to face the challenge head-on.

"Also… About Rúben. I really like him." The words hang in the air, heavy with unspoken implications. The agent's reaction is immediate, a flicker of annoyance crossing her features.

"At least this one is single." Her tone is sharp, a subtle warning against getting too involved in yet another complicated relationship.

The agent looks like she’s at her last nerve, her patience wearing thin. She leans forward, her eyes locking onto the protagonist's.

“So here’s what I’m going to ask from you: First, you’re going to be honest with me from now on. I can’t keep finding out shit about you through the Daily Mail. Second, I wasn’t going to say anything yet but there’s big talk in the record company about finally getting your album done. So please don’t get yourself in a media circus before that, okay?”

Rúben lounges on the couch, his long limbs stretching out as if to claim more space. His body language is relaxed yet inviting. The long hours of playing had left him tired, but he made sure to make time for the protagonist. She can’t help but notice the way his shirt rides up slightly, revealing a tantalizing sliver of skin. She quickly averts her gaze, focusing on his words instead.

"So... you talked to Kev." His tone is casual, but there is an underlying confidence in his voice. "He told me." Rúben's words hang in the air, a reminder that Kevin's actions were now under Rúben's watchful eye. He wanted her to feel comfortable, to know that Kevin would only speak to her when Rúben allowed it, from now on.

The protagonist notices Rúben's slight wince as he shifts on the couch, a sign of discomfort that doesn't escape her watchful eyes. Concern creeps into her expression, her big doll-like eyes fixed on him.

"Don't look at me like that." Rúben says, his voice a mix of amusement and plea.

"Like what?" She asks innocently, tilting her head slightly.

"Like you want to give me a massage." Rúben replies, his laughter fills the room. But beneath the joke, there is hope. An invitation.

Her heart skips a beat, a flush creeping up her cheeks. She hesitates for a moment, unsure if she should take the bait. But the allure of his request was too strong to resist.

She moves closer to him, her hands finding their way to his shoulders, where she begins to knead gently, her touch firm yet tender. As soon as she lays her hands on his body, an electric charge seems to buzz between them.

Rúben's reaction is immediate; she can see the goosebumps rise on his skin, mirroring her own. The realization that he felt it too takes her breath away.

Their playful banter had shifted into something more intimate; their eyes meet, and in the moment, words become superfluous. Their undeniable attraction draws them closer, like two magnets irresistibly pulled together.

Without a word, he turns to face her, his eyes dark with longing. She leans in and their lips meet in a fierce, passionate kiss. 

Time stands still as they lose themselves in each other, the world outside fading into insignificance.

They allow themselves to be consumed by their raw, primal desire.

Their lips part only briefly before meeting again in a hungry, fervent kiss. Their bodies move closer, seeking more of each other's touch.

She runs her fingers through his hair, feeling the softness of it, the tension melting away with each caress. His hands roam over her back, pulling her closer, their bodies fitting together as if they were made for each other.

Their kisses grew more urgent, more desperate, fueled by a passion that had been simmering between them for far too long. Their hearts pounding in sync with the rhythm of their desire.

Eventually, they pull apart, both breathless and flushed, their eyes locked in a shared moment of understanding.

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[tsukkinami]

Okay, so I'm breaking tumblr protocol here, and I apologize in advance for that. Anyways, I just slid onto you several month old response to an ask about Astarion, you blocked me. I'm messaging from an alt because I was on my way to leave another comment apologizing for sliding onto a six month old post to poke at things. I was genuinely curious as to what you were talking about in your latest post in the main tag. (Because he is a shit head, you aren't wrong.) And did actually want to know if I missed something. It wasn't me being facetious when I asked if it was referring to another post, it probably came off that way. But also it was pointless and out of line to engage at all. And probably quite repetitive for you. So sorry, feel free to block this account too, or not answer, or whatever. It was just going to nag me for like, the whole week if I didn't say something, since I was already planning too.

pretty sure did not block you since the OG ask from what i can see was anonymous, as is this one.

to clarify, in my original post i said he was a bad romance option. this is because there's a decent number of approval tasks you can/need to do to secure him that are questionable morally. things such as:

poking Nettie's bird to death

killing kahga

tricking and betraying the tieflings that capture laezel

opening the gate for the raiders

using the tadpole against brynna

killing or letting him kill the gurr

dealing with the hag

aiding minthara

betraying the tiefling camp

among other things in act 1. granted this is not an exhaustive list and you Might be able to get his approval without doing any of these things, but the fact that you can and it's super helpful is what bothers me and makes me dislike him

the truth of this situation is that i do not care what people think of astarion, i just think he sucks (pun intended) to romance and its funny to me that when i say that i invariably have people come to tell me that my opinion is wrong.

in my multiple playthroughs, when i play the way i want to, he always rejects my tav. it is only when i lean into the discomforting and, to me, offputting actions (not my thing for games i play for fun) that i get on the right track with him. highly emphasizing here that this is My experience.

beyond Act 1, there is an entirely other conversation to be had around him as a romantic partner. he is power hungry and his relationships feature that power inbalance (i don't have time or energy to get into how i actually think that for some people this could be a positive thing because it's a safe way to explore relationships like that without consequence) and pressure around letting him feed and grow more powerful from the tadpole.

the part about astarion's whole thing to me—his character, the response he received from the fandom, his widespread popularity with women mostly—is that i have rarely seen anyone actually dissecting this aspect of forging the romance with him. they see a smooth talking, sexy vampire and that's all they need. but it seems that when you deign to look closer, at the actual steps you can take to get to a point where he approves of you are not exclusively made up of "being a goody two shoes" as someone else put it. it warrants a deeper look that i just do not see anyone who claims to like him taking the time to do

would like to once again Heavily emphasize that this is an opinion and i genuinely Don't care what other people think of Astarion Baldrusgate

[bedlamsbard]

Darn. I was going to say Star Wars.

Ok, how about Loki? First or second season or both. :)

Haven't seen any of the second season yet -- combo of "this better not awaken anything in me" (since I don't want to get distracted back to Morning until Home is done), not being super thrilled with how S1 ended up going, and just not having time/energy/brainspace.

Loki speedran the SW Rebels experience to me -- loved the first episode (rewired my brain, got me out of Star Wars), increasingly fell out of love with the next few eps, hit an episode that was an absolute No for me (Journey Into Mystery), was pretty neutral on the finale. Part of it's that Sylvie doesn't do much for me -- I have nothing against her and I don't hate her or anything, but as a character she just doesn't do anything for me. Part of it is that Mobius doesn't do anything for me, either -- god, as far as speedrunning the Rebels experience, watching Mobius get the Kallus experience in like. three episodes. instead of the two seasons that Kallus got was An Experience. (and I didn't like it when Rebels did it with Kallus, either! I don't have anything against redemption arcs; I do have something against redemption arcs that are speedrun and which never engage with the original ~crimes.) Journey Into Mystery also does the thing which is really the MCU's curse whenever it does it -- it leans too heavily into comics knowledge without ever acknowledging that the MCU and the comics are really, really different, and you can't shorthand the one to the other. JiM isn't the only offender, but it's one of the more egregious ones. (The other big one is, unfortunately, Ms. Marvel 1.01, an episode that drives me up the wall.)

[laurasauras]

18, 23, 29 for the ask game!

18. Do you use any tools, like worksheets or outlines?

nah. i'd love to, don't get me wrong! there are some beautiful worksheets out there and i like the idea of having all the information to hand for sure, but i just can't make myself do it. it's too homeworky. i can't even use scrivener's character templates, i put the name in and then everything is random dot points in no order. i use all my organisation at work, i don't have any left over for home 😂

i guess i do outline longer fics/original stories, but it's not with a guided tool, it's dot points all the way down. i often don't outline until i'm midway through writing the story too and "outline" can be pretty generous. this is from my "aaa priorities" document (which functions as my calendar and quick reference guide)

the fics are in order of what my priorities were last time i thought about it and i haven't updated the Prince of Grief one that i finished over the weekend, so you can see what i had there as my outline for the ending that's been sitting there for a casual 4 years. evanescent idolatry's outline goes on for pages and pages though. which is part of the reason i haven't written it--because i've already fucking written it 😂

23. If you were to revise one of your older fics from start to finish, which would it be and why?

the one that's on my mind rn is Prince of Grief because as i say i finished it over the weekend and i'm not gonna lie, rereading it was REALLY painful. i didn't let myself edit it because i wanted to FINISH it, but i did have to go in and correct john's quirk, which i'd used incorrectly. what, did 2018 laura not have the time to check the wiki? she didn't even think she needed to, hubristic bitch that she is! and oh my god, i overused CAPS LOCK. that's not even addressing the way i leaned heavily on dialogue because i hadn't learned how to balance it with prose yet, as well as like a million other things that hurt me as i was rereading.

apart from that, maybe Elevatorstuck! it's not a particularly long fic, but i was unspeakably proud of it when i wrote it and the concept remains solid. i like the timestamp format and there are times when the writing is pretty good too, but god. i didn't know how to write john back then. a couple of years ago i went through and got rid of like 80 million exclamation points and i think that improved it, but it'd be cool to do a rewrite with all my 2024 mad skillz.

29. If you could write the sequel (or prequel) to any fic out there not written by yourself, which would you choose?

to be honest, i think the "inspired by" function of ao3 is really underrated and there's nothing really holding me back from writing sequels/prequels of other people's fics. i mean, i'd ask as a courtesy, but i know if anyone wanted to write something based on my fics i'd just be super flattered and want to read it!

i suppose Social Norms aren't the only things that get in a way of a "could", so my answer is actually BONES OF BLACK MARROW by oxfordRoulette. it's hands down the coolest fic ever and i think about it constantly. the reason i can't do this is because the story is perfect in its shape and there isn't a need for a sequel, but also because the creativity and coding know-how required to do what they did with the formatting is simply beyond me. i have on multiple occasions shown people this fic as proof that fanfic is Real Art

[deeply-unserious-fellow]

I DID IT I DESIGNED CHARACTERS!!!!!! SPECIFICALLY JEKYLL AND HYDE CHARACRERS!!!!!!!! EVERYBODY LOOK I DID IT!!!!!!!!

And now, for my thought process~

Dr Henry Jekyll: Man's is built like a fuckin TANK bro. Idk why everybody draws him as a twink he's CLEARLY meant to be MASSIVE(/pos). Anyways, as you've probably noticed, I leaned HEAVILY into the color coding for this one. I chose red for Jekyll mostly- uh, mostly just because I already associated Hyde with green and I wanted them to be complimentary colors? But also he has red character vibes in the musical to me. Probably because the poster is very red. I gave him tiny glasses cuz I thought it looked cool lol. I uh, I don't really know why he's the only character with visible pockets? I guess I just thought it looked best on his design or something. He was originally gonna have a ponytail but I thought it made him look to much like he was from the American Revolution so I changed it to the shorter, poofier style shown in the picture. Also his vest was originally brown but I decided I wanted more red in his design so I changed it.

Gabriel John Utterson: SQUARE. SQUARE SHAPED MAN. He's repeatedly described as like the most boring man alive so I decided to reflect that in his design by making him really rigid and almost statue-like. Hence all the grays. I wanted to add a dash of color though, so I gave him a blue tie(also the strappy thingy around his hat is blue but that isn't visible here). He's also super pale to go with the cold/stoney vibe of the rest of his color scheme.

Dr Hastie Lanyon: God this one took me FOREVER to figure out omfg. I didn't have a very good idea of what he looked like while reading the novel and until I started actually searching for them I didn't see very many fan designs for him. All I knew is I wanted him to wear yellow bcuz primary color trios RULE. But theeeeeen I started looking up other peoples designs, and picked out a couple of contants I liked (ex; short, dark skin, gray streaks), then boom! I knew what I wanted to do! Anyways yeah, once I had an idea I just went for it and uh, I dont have much else to say :)

Edit: WAIT SHIT I FORGOT LANYON HAS LIKE A MASSIVE WHITE STREAK IN HIS HAIR OMFG-

Edit 2 Electric Boogaloo: Okay so my Lanyon design was driving me SO crazy I felt the need to update the ref, so now he's a little taller and has the afformentioned white streak aornfoemdk

Edward Hyde: Fun fact, Hyde was originally going to be 4'6, but I just kept making him shorter and shorter until he lost the 6 inches entirely lol. The only description we got of Hyde in the book was that he was small, hairy and had an "unexpressed deformity", so I guess I just took that to mean he is a Creature and ran with it lmao. I made him SUPER pointy, just the sharpest man. Mostly to contrast with the round shapes of Jekyll, but also he's kinda just that kinda dude, y'know? I also made sure his silhouette was super uneven, in contrast to all of the classy characters have(mostly) symmetrical silhouettes. OBVIOUSLY he needed to have a cloak and top hat, because really, what Hyde design is complete without a cloak and top hat? There are 3 reasons I decided to make his color green: 1; the potion Jekyll uses to become Hyde is green. 2; Green, at least in my mind, means sick, and Hyde is supposed to look sickly and unpleasant. And 3; The Ghost of Mr Hyde from Scooby Doo is green and he was the first version of the character I ever saw, so I've kinda just associated him with it ever since. Speaking of the Ghost of Mr Hyde, the mud on his shoes is actually an homage to that episode! I tried to get the color as close to the weird, off redish the mud on Dr Jekyll's shoes was in that episode. Why? Because Scooby Doo my beloved <3. Also since this section is already so fucking long, the reason he has that silver tooth is because the original got knocked out in a fight. In this version, Hyde's injuries do NOT carry over to Jekyll, and vice versa, so he needs to take out the tooth before he transforms back and put it back in when he's Hyde again. Idk why I put the most thought into Hyde's design but whatever-

So yeah! Those are my designs and the thoughts behind them! Hope yall like em :)

[sirquestingbeast]

Kingdom Hearts Character's (Homestuck) Classpect Pt.1: I'm Not a Liar.

Howsitgoinguys I'm back with that thing I promised. I never forgot about it, it was just that some characters were so hard to classpect that for the sake of my sanity I had to step back from the project. But I'm back on my manic bullshit so not only did I get it done, but I have classpected every single character originally from Kingdom Hearts. Before I announce the first batch, I just want to be clear about my Classpecting system.

💋 I treat Classpecting as self contained like a horoscope or MBTI type thingy. But not as a personality thing; more like incorporating the story as a whole into the healthiest state of being for the character.

💋Because of above, I don't believe any Classpect is doomed to fail; it depends on the actions and events of the story and clashing with other classpects that lead down that path. Death can very well be part of the journey for a character but it shouldn't be the end; Foretellers yes, Dark Road no.

💋 My point of reference is literally what I remember from Homestuck itself, some notes from the Classpecting for Assholes by Neurotypeline video and the wiki HOWEVER I have also seen Optimistic Dualist's and Ouroborista's videos on the subject so if their influence it's felt... I just can't help it man, I don't have original thoughts.

💋 I believe in aspect duality; Breath-Blood, Time-Space, Hope-Rage, Doom-Life, Void-Light, Heart-Mind

💋 Breath/Blood is forward progression, Time/Space is foundation, Hope/Rage is symbolism and themes, Doom/Life is narrative, Void/Life is lore, Heart-Mind is character development. HOWEVER these categories aren't isolated. Characters can dip into adjacent concepts to help progress the main; the closest two inconsequentially and the ones further out with the possibility of an issue occuring.

💋 Characters are also linked to their mirror; sometimes in symbolism or their inclination to lean into it. Depending on the class and the context it can either be a nifty tool or super detrimental. In general even the most flexible classpect will go down a bad path if they lean more heavily into their mirror than their true Classpect.

💋 This is not a statement on powers or personality. Being the same Classpect as a cannon character doesn't mean shit I'm just dumb like that. The way I see it, your aspect is a collection of keywords, your class is the origin of your power/journey to getting it, and what the results of that are purely up to your imagination.

💋 Similar classpects will probably feel some type of way about them. Certain classes function the same way in a typically replicable way so they might relate on their journey. Certain aspects usually have keywords that correlate to ideological beliefs. They might also hate each other and be polar opposites because they interpret those keywords differently or they don't embrace/understand the journey of their class.

With that out of the way, there are a collection of types where there isn't enough content for me to do anything but vibe type them or...I dunno. I just don't have a lot to say about them. If your fave is on here, I'm sorry bestie. If you press me for your fave individually I will be happy to explain the reasoning but off the top of my head, I have nothing to say about these motherfuckers.

Hermod: Seer of Space

Vor: Mage of Blood

Urd: Thief of Void

Hoder: Heir of Life

Vidar: Witch of Mind

Vala: Sylph of Breath

Heimdall: Page of Blood

Helgi:Knight of Rage

Sigurn: Sylph of Heart

Odin:Mage of Time

Skuld: Maid of Breath

Ira: Prince of Light

Invi: Bard of Void

Aced: Knight of Life

Gula: Thief of Hope

Ava: Witch of Rage

Pence: Heir of Light

Olette: Maid of Blood

Larxene/Elrena: Prospit, Maid of Rage

Demyx: Prospit, Rogue of Void

Luxord: Prospit, Maid of Light

Vexen:/Even Derse, Seer of Light

Xaldin/Dillan: Derse, Prince of Heart

Lexaeus/Aeleus: Prospit, Knight of Life

Zexion/Ienzo: Prospit, Page of Space

DiZ: Mage of light

Caio for nao homies~

[thecatsaesthetics]

I saw someone on twitter discussing Rhaegar, and other problematic elements of the series, and they basically said GRRM had no idea what trash Rhaegar was in the 90s when he first came up with the character but he probably is now aware of how awful literally everyone (except the targ stans) think Rhaegar is so when/if he ever gets to the part of the series where Martin explains the relationship he will have to do some serious damage control to 'fix' R/L.

They also said, which I fully agree with, that because he's taken 30 years to finish this series, social mores and cultural norms have shifted so much that a lot of plot points and characterizations he was probably planning are now deeply, deeply problematic whereas back in the 90s, the fantasy-reader audience the books were originally marketed towards would not have cared. Like you said, the post-me too era has brought forth a lot more awareness about grooming, age gaps, power imbalances, etc. I definitely think one of the reasons its difficult to finish the series is because GRRM is now aware of certain plot points he has been planning no longer being palatable and knowing he would get crucified for if he went forward with them. Like San/san was definitely something that was meant to be more romantic or sexual but the ages of the characters, lack of five year gap, and knowing people would rage at him if he made San/san canon in anyway means that romantic ship is over imo lol. Sa/ndor's love for Sa/nsa will be a lot more platonic and self-sacrificial going forward as opposed to romantic undertones.

For R/L though, I do wonder if GRRM telling HOTD writers to include the ice and fire prophecy in the show means that he will lean way more heavily into 'Well, ackshually, Rhaegar was saving the world it wasn't about wanting to fuck a teen he became infatuated with. Also, Elia was chill with it because Dornish(tm).' Basically, I can see Martin leaning way more heavily toward Rhaegar doing what he did to save humanity versus him not being able to keep it in his pants. But we'll see if/when the series is ever completed, which is a big if.

Sorry this is so long I'm putting it underneath:

I do agree that Martin came up with this series in the 90s and did not expect it to become such a cultural landmark. I am not sure he agrees Rhaegar is "awful" as Martin has said and done things within his book series that make me believe he does not see much wrong with a 16 year old running off with a 23 year old. I do think he always intended to add the magically bits in the story with Rhaegar and Lyanna but that they were suppose to be look at as the human incarnations of Ice and Fire and Jon being the offspring of that magic.

And even if Martin did realize after much discussion how problematic the Lyanna and Rhaegar situation is I don't think he would change it. The unfortunate truth is they are fundamental to the story. Not in a way where we need to see them, but they are similar to Paris and Helen. Without their actions the story doesn't exist, and without Rhaegar and Lyanna running off the story does not happen. Our world is reset.

And the book has expanded so much, including a list of characters Martin never intended for us to see, that it makes us really resent both Lyanna and Rhaegar as readers. All the while the narrative itself does not seem to be aware of how horrible the actions of them (especially Rhaegar) is. Adding the Aegon storyline in the book and if he doesn't turn out to be a fake and does end up dead and Jon ends up somehow having a "happy" ending it feels super insulting to Elia and the rest of the characters who suffered due to Rhaegar and Lyanna's actions.

The inclusion of the Ice and Fire prophecy in HOTD had nothing to do with Martin and more to do with the HOTD writers wanting to include a reason for why Viserys was choosing Rhaenyra. In the books Viserys is just a shitty king and has no reason at all for not naming Aegon after his birth. In the show it's hinted he believes the Ice and Fire prophecy would only be fulfilled under Rhaenyra's line.

As for what Martin will do with Elia, I really am not sure but he has said he will make it "complicated". I tend to think he wouldn't make Elia "okay" with it but he might have a situation where Elia believes her son is the Prince that was Promised and wants him to have his "Visenya". But I'm not sold on that just because I don't think Rhaegar would use Lyanna to get a Visenya, he would likely assume the child from Lyanna was the Prince that was Promised simply because of the "ice" connection.

But on the topic of why Martin hasn't finished the series. I have several thoughts:

 First, he's written himself into a nightmare. If you read A Feast for Crows and A Dance with Dragons, they are interesting but they expand the plot in a way I've never seen done before. For any type of novel. He has multiple POVs with incredibly complex and interesting storylines, most of which aren't connected to the main plot. I don't know how he's going to handle closing all of those storylines within two books. I love Feast and Dance so much but as a writer I cannot image having to close all of those storylines.

Second, GOT took up so much time. In the first years GOT was airing Martin did a lot of media for the show, cons, and even wrote a whole episode up until season 5. That's a lot of work and it doesn't leave a lot of time to write and complete the story. Also once it became clear Martin wouldn't even complete Winds before the show closed I don't think he had the same motivation to write faster. Why not take his time? Plus D&D had clearly branched out from all the book storylines by season 4.

Third, the reaction to the ending of GOT (which were his intended endings) must have hurt. I cannot image a world where you as the writer of this series see people reacting so poorly to your intended ending (even if D&D butchered it) would not feel at least disappointment. People hated Villain Dany and her death (does matter if I love fallen Dany) and I 100% believe he's going there in the next book. He might be worried or concerned about the reaction. Martin has admitted that seeing fans discuss the series and figuring out things have made him want to change course. And that was back when the series was limited to forum discussions online. He had major news outlets discussing how "awful" Dany's ending was. That likely affected him and his writing.

[winsoongi]

odd numbers in the oc ask game for this nyangi fellow

[ask game]

>:Dc YESSS TY i love doing these!!! i couldn't find any recent sketches of nyangi i haven't posted, but i did find this one from back in 2021:

he's fine. Answers under the cut:

I typically associate nyangi with electric blue, though the colors he wears most often are red, black, and white. Mostly red, though. He leans into the gamer aesthetic

3. Nyangi's weapon of choice is an ancient crowbar, though it hasn't seen much use. it was the first thing he stumbled across when looking for a way to protect himself, so he's gotten pretty attached to it.

5. While he likes to be comfortable, nyangi definitely favors fashion over function. He typically dresses in sweats and a t shirt, but they're like, $400 sweats and a $600 t shirt. he's gotta spend that esports money on something.

7. his favorite animals are vultures, but only aesthetically. for an animal he'd actually want to be around, koi fish, maybe? he doesn't actually like cats that much and gets annoyed when people assume he does

9. Nyangi's a simple man. he loves string cheese and eats it with just about everything. he's not a super picky eater, but more often than not he finds himself sticking to instant ramen because he figures he'll enjoy it more than whatever else he could get. Nyangi's least favorite food is anything mint-flavored. he'd rather eat toothpaste.

11. Oh boy... i do not have a lot in common with nyangi. i had to think about this one for a while... neither of us went to college and we're both loyal? As for differences, there's a lot but i think i can sum it up by saying that nyangi chooses the nuclear option whenever it's offered. i love him deeply but he and i would NOT get along at all and i never want to have to deal with someone like him irl LMAO

13. Nyangi is a native korean speaker, but doesn't speak any other languages fluently. he can understand a fair amount of english and he took french for a year in high school (it was required), but he doesn't feel comfortable speaking either.

15. Nyangi's an only child. his family is just him and his parents, and they don't often see other family growing up. in normalverse, nyangi's roommate was deos, but in Ad Terra he lives alone (apart from his crowbar)

17. Is it a copout to say he spent all his free time and summers gaming? nyangi was pretty shy as a kid and didn't have many friends before he got into Fantasy OW.

19. Nyangi has an astonishing temper and is laughably easy to provoke. Though he's able to hold it down when he's in front of people he respects, he otherwise doesn't see a point in turning the other cheek (though it's always "just a joke, [he's] not actually mad" if he gets called out on it). He's specifically very, very sensitive about his skills as a pro and hates being underestimated.

21. His favorite place to be is Igni Astra's original practice room! it was tiny and a pigsty (courtesy of fleck and splinter) but nyangi has nothing but good memories of it. though he's been in lots of other practice rooms since then, he's never been able to recapture the same kind of camaraderie and excitement he remembers.

23. Nyangi's voice is sharp and scratchy and I think his vocal range is also a low-ish tenor? he can't sing at all, which is partially due to how poorly hydrated he is. the man lives off of coffee, soda, and cheap alcohol.

25. Nyangi's hearing is completely average, but he's legally blind without his glasses.

27. (again making this favorite game) Nyangi's favorite game is FUBG (Fantasy Unknown BattleGrounds), but he doesn't ever play it without friends. As for his favorite solo game, he plays a lot of Fantasy Tetris.

29. I heavily associate nyangi with electricity and lightning. that's the reason i ended up making his surname Jeon (while 電 (meaning electricity) isn't the actual hanja for the last name jeon afaik, it's pronounced the same)! (it also makes his name even more of a dumb homonym, but that was completely accidental)

31. Nyangi doesn't have any particular feelings about gift-giving or receiving, but he does try to show off sometimes by buying expensive gifts. though he would never admit this to anyone (least of all himself) his ideal gift is someone giving him a hug and telling him they're proud of him :(

33. nyangi is pretty divisive among my ocs, though i think all of them would describe him using some version of the word "passionate." splinter would call him bratty and annoying, sale and deos wouldn't disagree with him but would add on that he's intelligent and "going places." fleck would say he's loyal to a fault, and seonjin would just plain call him annoying. as for roadster... it's complicated. he'd probably decline to respond.

35. in normalverse, nyangi does return home occasionally, but he doesn't like spending time with his parents. In Ad Terra, more metaphorically... you'll just have to wait and see :)c

[arundolyn]

yknow. on the opposite end of the character theme vibe appropriateness spectrum from x-matic. dissonance and inJUSTICE are kinda nothing to me. like sure they have lore implications and character interaction reasons to exist but like instrumentally and tbh tonally it doesnt really fit the Guys gender neutral its for? dissonance didnt quite make sense in cpex until bloodedge experience came out and we knew immortal breakers lore but for valk and relius its a little generic. they have specific vibes about them and thats not quite It. and i maintain like... inJUSTICE being for hakumen and izayoi SPECIFICALLY kinda doesnt make sense. super one sided. tsubaki doesnt know anything about hakumen having married her or whatever in his original timeline and being in love with her. and also like why is it Just izayoi and not also tsubaki. plus tsubaki/izayoi heavily idolizes him and has no real reason to want to fight him? iirc even in cpex there was no lore reason for them to fight. at least valk and relius literally since the first time they were onscreen together wanted to tear each other limb from limb (or at least valk did, which is insane thats like literally the only time we see valk get THAT outwardly actually violent. at least in cs it looked like he hated his ass more than terumi which is saying quite the fuck a bit!) ill die on the hill of inJUSTICE fitting tsubaki vs izayoi internal struggle type thing conceptually way better. the only thing that really screams hakumen in the instrumentation is the syncopated interlude bit in the middle that sounds adjacent to SUSANOOH but thats really All there. at least with black and white for ragna and hakumen you can kinda push the angle of it being like a cousin of under heaven destruction where the strings represent hakumen bc deep down . That's Still Jin And Ragna Fighting, even if thats a different jin who has been through way more shit and is way more INTENT on killing ragna for an actual REASON even if that reason is still kinda bullshit from a semi normal point of view. theres SOME logic behind it as opposed to jin doing whatever the fuck he feels like. the strings in inJUSTICE dont feel representative of hakumen cause the only time thats been his motif really is black and white. the guitar isnt his vibe either, its strongly reminiscent of justice sword. like yeah yeah jin or whatever but that doesnt really feel like it tracks here quite as much especially considering tsubaki has no idea about their history and has no reason to truly want to fight him. it feels like they wanted childish killer Again but this time its Jin But Different and Tsubaki But Different. doesnt really fly for me i dont think. the strings are already an established motif for both tsubaki and izayoi, and izayoi leans more heavily on the guitar than tsubaki, which obviously makes sense cause theyre the same person. theres not a division like with noel and mu initially. at least it makes sense for mu to not have the vs themes noel does cause its Not Her

[alexanderflowerbird]

little progress report of how writing is going :3

New Faith: Word Count: 62,389

I'm between doing research and cranking out scenes right now, because producing scenes separated from their context is kinda my jam right now. Of course I have chapters 1-12 written cuz originally I was on top of writing it in order, but I am thinking once I start Fuck Nano next month, I'll be able to write through the in-betweens and drop whole scenes into the OG doc and that feels... super gratifying. I keep telling myself I need to look for a bible verse about looking away from something and then I forget and then I remember and then I forget lol. I know I wanna start looking for the right words in the story about Sodom and Gomorrah but we'll see if the text actually has what I'm looking for. I'm leaning into the idea of angels and demons being more active players in the story because I told my husband I was worried if I did that it would end up like Supernatural and he said fuck it, it won't, and even if it's got hints of it so what. Which like... thank you husband, you're so right, angels and demons here I come. Turns out there's plenty of ritual in the world for casting out evil, but a lot of it serves to deal with spirits rather than demons. And my demons are def not spirits so... gonna keep studying. I don't want my story to be so heavily reliant on Christianity, but it sure is challenging when I have the most access to Christian and western literature, and much of what I can access about other cultures I have a hard time trusting the minute it's some cis white dude explaining it to me. But reading and learning and researching is just the name of the game so I'mma keep it pushin'. At least the writing comes easy lol, I love being in Mercutio's head, even if I wanna shake him. Blood Sun Territory: Word Count: 5298 I've been reading westerns and southern gothics a ton to try and decide what elements of that sort of story telling I want to bring into Blood Sun Territory. I did not know this before I started reading, but a western and a southern gothic are often in very different regions of the US, even if they're both very southern in nature lol. So I keep getting dragged back and forth between green, lush, mountainous landscapes, the endless stretch of orange sandy deserts, and occasionally even swamp land. I know I want my story to happen in a place where more often than not, you can see for miles and miles and miles, so swamps and super dense forest all over the place is out, but desert or mountains desert or mountains.... I'm also starting to figure out the romance between Dolcezza and Malachi; I LOVE writing men who are kinda so gay they can't help but have their thoughts infiltrated with fondly noticing details, so it's been very fun to write these two men trying to be professional, getting to know each other by nature of being stuck together on the road in a dangerous place, and the little things that make their heart pitter patter about each other. New Faith has a lot of this with Mercutio, but because Mercutio is holding the narrative stick the whole time, you have to read into what Vincente's all about. I've already decided that Dolcezza and Malachi share this story, so you get both, and for me? That's double the fun.

[risaonda]

what is going on in Lost (is that what thw show is called) if thats too crazy to explain thennn who's a character ur rooting for:3 if any

idk if i ever posted when i did but i actually finished lost recently after forcing myself to sit down and do so (bc otherwise for the rest of my life i'd have I Never Finished Lost thoughts looming over me forever). it sure was a show

irt the post my queue reblogged that's daniel, his gf i don't remember the name of, and juliet who i still don't know how i feel about as a character. they coulda done more with her they killed her a really stupid way near the end but it didn't actually matter. i digress. so daniel accidentally killed his gf (a different one, not the one in the picture) or like fried her brain at least by doing time travel science and then years and years into the future weird shit was happening on the island because of his time travel stuff? i was on my phone a lot during this part idk but she died. i don't remember a lot of the specifics from that part bc in the end it was a blip nothing matters in this show. daniel at some point gets shot by a woman he recognizes is his mother in the past and he tells her this and then u find out his mother knew this was going to happen and sent him back in time in order to make sure this happened because it needed to bc fate or some shit. remember how this was a show about a plane crash

what i DO remember most clearly since it's freshest in my mind is they did this weird backstory for the smoke monster (there's a smoke monster on the island) where u find out he was originally just a guy and he had this brother jacob (jacob is a super important character from like some later season onward he's supposed to protect the island but no one has ever actually seen him. who cares). but u find out that their mom like crashed on a ship on the island while she was super pregnant and everyone else with her died and some lady on the island finds her and helps her out and then after she has her kids the lady kills her? and pretends to be the kids' mom instead??? and is like one day one of u is going to have to take over protecting the island, leaning heavily towards it's going to be the one that becomes the smoke monster (idk if he had a name i don't even remember) but one day he saw the ghost of his real mom and learned the truth and went uhhh fuck this i wanna leave the island LMAO. so fake mom goes okay jacob um actually ur gonna be the new protector and we are killing ur fail brother. i don't remember what all happens after that specifically i was super out of it but the smoke monster present day is pretending to be john locke after he died and everyone eventually realizes That Is Not John Locke and he's trying to leave the island and Go Home. at the end of lost he was the only one i was still rooting for genuinely i was so fed up with everything else. also they killed the like top 3 characters that were left (sun, jin, and sayid) back to back to back out of nowhere. the only other one besides the smoke monster i was rooting for was hugo who won the lottery and was like a millionaire and he hated it and everyone thought he was fucking with them when he told them this (which he didn't usually bc he didn't want people to hang out with him just for his money)

lost ended with everyone realizing they died in the plane crash and they all meet up with each other and help the others remember that they were on an island and died in a plane crash (bc they're like living lives in modern day but Wrong it was weirdddd) and then they all get together in a church and go to heaven. i'm not even kidding. also the more i think about this the madder i get bc michael an earlier character wasn't even there and there was no mention of him whatsoever, but he DID show up as a ghost before that so i can't even pass it off with Oh the actor was like fuck no i'm not coming back to lost. juliet WAS there? but she was not on the plane with them at any point. she was already on the island for years prior to the plane crash that's an entirely separate story i'm NOT going into. nothing made sense. very christian. every time i saw benjamin do anything i'd go that's sooo zep saw of him at one point he went "u broke the rules" or something along those lines and i was like THAT'S THE LINE! HE SAID THAT IN Saw.